Haven’t found my way to an AA meeting yet. Why? Because I really don’t want to go. As I’ve stated here before, I’ve never been good at making meetings. Never been good at staying sober either.
Anybody who has been around recovery long knows, beyond all doubt, that the people who stay sober over time are the one’s who get involved in a 12-step group. The Jesus thing seems to work for a very few. The rest tend to go from relapse to relapse.
How much do I dislike going to AA meetings? Am I willing to die prematurely and as a direct result of my addiction so that I don’t have to spend a few hours a week in the company of others trying to save themselves? I wish it was a rhetorical question.