Within the first 15 minutes or so of my getting up in the mornings I can tell whether it’s going to be a depressed day or not. About half the time the depression will only last the morning and part or all of the afternoon and then clear up for the rest of the day. The other half it never breaks until the cycle has run its course, which is somewhere between 24 and 48 hours right now. Today is a depressed day, or at least a depressed morning.
I didn’t want to get up but since I usually don’t that’s not definitive. My dogs were irritating the piss out of me almost immediately, though, and that’s a bad sign. I wanted to go back to bed but for some reason have opted for washing a bunch of clothes. My grandmother feels better today and is actually outside so I need to stay up and halfway keep an eye on her. Hopefully this will fade away with the coming of the afternoon.
At the most recent bipolar group the therapist wanted me to get on a cancellation list so that maybe I could see the doctor before my current appointment. I didn’t do it after group but have already called the nurse this morning. For whatever reason the depression is prevailing over the meds. Now it seems I’m depressed every other day and that’s no good. Hopefully they’ll work me in somehow to see the doctor. If not, it’s going to be a long three plus weeks.
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